Week 10: Feeling Strange

"The woman whose eyes she used was the last woman the child she had been would have expected to become." -Stephen King

This week, I have been feeling strange.  You know, people talk all the time about how great it is to lose weight, how amazing you feel, yadda, yadda, yadda.  What no one ever talks about is how strange it feels at times.

It's strange to walk past a full length mirror and not recognize the person you see (Think Mulan--Who is that girl I see, staring straight back at me?).

It's strange to go to a fast food joint that you have frequented throughout your life and not want to eat a single thing on the menu, not even the salad. (Even if you did eat the salad. And some fries leftover from the kid's meals you bought for the kids.)

It's strange to have an entire closet of clothes that don't fit because they are too big, and not the other way around.  (This is much more frustrating than it sounds.)

It's strange to go from "I love this food (cake, cookies, pizza, whatever)" to "I love this food, but I don't eat it" to "I don't even like this food anymore".  I have to take this moment to quote an old Drake and Josh episode: "I don't even know what love is! I used to love meatloaf; now I question whether meat should come in the form of a loaf!" By the way, I still love meatloaf, but the same is not true of fast food, pizza, most packaged cookies, some candies, soda, etc.

It's strange to go to stores and not try on some of the biggest clothes on the racks.

It's strange to have people you barely know tell you how great you look and how much weight you're losing.

It's all very strange.  But don't get me wrong, I'll take all the strange feelings if it means that I am actually achieving something, which in this case, I am!

So on to the weekly weigh in.  I am down just .8 pound from last week, which is pretty good considering the obscene amount of Goldfish and Cheerios I consumed this weekend while babysitting! I am always happy to see any progress on the scale.

Speaking of the scale, I have decided to take a break from it for the week.  Typically, I weigh myself everyday, not to obsess about things, but to watch the fluctuations. This weekend, however, I did not take my scale to babysitting so there was no weigh in for two whole days. And it felt great! So I decided to try it for a bit longer, although I will still weigh in Saturday morning!

Without the scale to give me an idea of how I'm doing, I decided to really focus on what my body is telling me and practice eating and exercising more mindfully.  Today has been a great start to that and I'm looking forward to a happy and healthy week!

Pounds lost: 14

Pounds left to lose: 16

Love,

Candace